Kendall Jenner Recalls the ‘Dark Nights’ She Used to ‘Hysterically’ Cry Herself to Sleep from Modeling

“There’s been a lot of definite moments where I’m like, ‘What is going on, is this all worth it?’ ” Jenner said on the ‘Anything Goes with Emma Chamberlain’ podcast

Kendall Jenner is opening up about the feelings of loneliness she has dealt with while modeling.

In a conversation with Emma Chamberlain for her podcast, Anything Goes, the reality television star, 28, spoke candidly about her experience as a model.

“I’m not gonna sit here and say that I’ve had the toughest journey. I think I’ve been extremely fortunate,” Jenner said on the Aug. 1 episode. “But I also have had my own set of challenges, whether it’s [being] overworked or not getting a job that I would’ve really loved to get.”

The 818 Tequila founder also touched upon the loneliness she began to feel while jet-setting around the globe for gigs.

“It is very lonely,” Jenner agreed with Chamberlain. “I’ve had really dark nights where I’ve been in random cities and just hysterically crying myself to sleep because I haven’t been home in three months and I’ve been pretty much alone the entire time.”

She went to add that there are other times when she’s working and “something really crazy happens at home that I would love to be there for and I’m being told I can’t be.”

“There’s been a lot of definite moments where I’m like, ‘What is going on, is this all worth it?’ ” Jenner said.

However, Jenner has several routines that help her feel grounded, like “cleansing” her body by taking a shower or “submerging” herself in any body of water (she says it’s the Scorpio in her that craves the H2O), taking walks and doing digital detoxes.

And looking back on her career thus far, she can’t help but count her blessings.

“It really is a beautiful thing to be able to travel the world the way I have. I probably would’ve never traveled the way I have or the amount that I have had I not had this job. I’ve met a lot of amazing people,” she said, adding, “I feel very grateful for my experience.”

In recent years, Jenner has been an advocate for creating safe spaces to foster conversations around mental health while simultaneously living with her own anxiety issues, something she’s dealt with since she was 7.

“I don’t see why I shouldn’t be honest about it,” she said in her Vogue summer 2024 cover story that was published in June. “In my career right now I feel really stable, really hopeful. But I’ve had a tough two months. I haven’t been myself, and my friends see it. I’m more sad than usual. I’m way more anxious than usual,” she continued.

“So I’m not going to sit here and act like everything’s perfect. That’s life — I’m always going to be in and out of those feelings. In past interviews, when someone’s asked me about my mental state, it’s always been, ‘I’m great right now, but this is what I’ve dealt with.’ Well, right now I’m actually in it.”